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 i am exhausted from this awful week and C is gone in china for work so is unavailable for support so it's worse than usual to be emotionally distressed and tomorrow i have to do an intro to disability rights presentation for undergrads who are 99% likely to be awful and ignorant and offensive and sigh.

if you have extra emotional energy this week (hahahaha) please send some my way.
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so there's basically two things i'm working on at work - these fucking fires, and this whole project about disability waivers for people applying for naturalization but who can't learn english or pass the civics test because of their disabilities. except it's impossible to litigate this issue, at least for us who can't do class actions. and i don't know how to do administrative advocacy with an agency with which i've never had any dealings. and i don't know if this issue is important to the immigration law community - is it affecting 1 in every 2 disabled naturalization candidates, or one in 2,000? are there more pressing issues we should be working on?

i explained the whole thing to my mom on the phone and she said "wait, so does anyone actually care that you're doing this work?" and my honest answer was well no. and then she said "aren't there actual problems that you'd be more effective at working on?" and my honest answer was well yes. significantly. and for a variety of reasons that i don't want to think about much less type out, this seems to be what my organization wants me to be doing.

i am good at this work i care about this work i do not know why i can't just do good work.

if i am still this miserable this time next year or even 6 months from now i'm going to have to figure something out. it's pretty clear this whole big plan to readjust my job so that i could do work has not so much worked out. and i feel like the whole year has been wasted in terms of my career. and i feel like i've written this exact same post at least 20 times already, just complaining. i don't know what to do.

good thing i don't define myself by my work or career or anything.
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California election guide
November 4, 2008
You may have heard that there is a presidential election going on, and you probably already have an opinion on who to vote for. But there's also a pile of Propositions and Measures and other sorts of things that you get to vote on. Let's see what we got! Below are my summaries and recommendations, but also links to the proposition text, legislative analysis, and the supporting and opposing websites. My recommendations are based on my priorities and my beliefs about what government should be doing for us, but you may disagree. If in doubt, vote NO on the propositions to keep the status quo.propositions and measures and judges, oh my! )
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For some reason, both Brandon and Dylan are head over heels in luv with Kelly, even though she treats both of them poorly and doesn’t really do anything. This had been building for an entire season, she’s dating Brandon but Dylan is clearly still hung up on her. And Brandon goes and buys an engagement ring and asks her to marry him and then Dylan gives her a plane ticket and asks her to go around the world with him. And then there’s all this “what is she going to do they are both such wonderful men (except Brandon who is a sanctimonious tool but therefore perfect for Kelly)” and then she goes and rejects them both. I mean, “chooses her.” Which sounded stupid even the first time she said it, and then to have that become an ongoing pop culture concept, choosing oneself, is just outrageous. But it did make for a dramatic plot twist, I guess.
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This was such a stupid storyline. All the kids went to prom together and Mel Silver had them over to his stupid bachelor condo beforehand and gave them champagne and then they had more champagne in the limo and because Donna was pure and virginal and had never even breathed air that had been exposed to alcohol before, she got good and wasted. They tried to sneak her out but Ms. Teasely totally busted her all hiccupping and babbling and then told her that because of some new rule about zero tolerance Donna would not be allowed to graduate. And Donna may have been stupid and had some kind of unspecified learning disability but she totally wanted to graduate! No fair making her take responsibility for her actions! And for some unexplained reason Brandon got all excited about it (something about the process the school board had used to make the rule) and organized a walkout of HUNDREDS of students all chanting “DONNA MARTIN GRADUATES” and the school board was powerless against such a massive demonstration and caved and she DID graduate. And then never used her education ever again.
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hey! there's another election on june 3! that's next tuesday!

tuesday, june 3
polling place locator: or call 1-800-815-2666
prop 98: NO
prop 99: YES
judicial office #69: harvey silberman

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i miss you, dr. king.

“If any of you are around when I have to meet my day,” King told the congregation of Atlanta’s Ebenezer Baptist Church on February 4, 1968, two months before his assassination, “I don’t want a long funeral. And if you get somebody to deliver the eulogy, tell them not to talk too long. Tell them not to mention that I have a Nobel Peace Prize — that isn’t important. Tell them not to mention that I have three or four hundred other awards — that’s not important. Tell them not to mention where I went to school. I’d like somebody to mention that day that Martin Luther King Jr. tried to give his life serving others. I’d like for somebody to say that day that Martin Luther King Jr. tried to love somebody. I want you to say that day that I tried to be right on the war question. I want you to be able to say that I did try to feed the hungry. I want you to be able to say that I did try in my life to clothe those who were naked.”[1]

it's so amazing it makes tears spring to my eyes. and galvanizes me to do the very best i can to honor his work, his ideas, his dreams, and his legacy.

sources )
thatabbygirl: graffiti art of an anthropomorphized spray paint can, scowling (blue swirl)
just spammed my entire address book with this - hopefully of interest/use to you as well. obviously starts with LA-specific stuff, but covers a lot of ground.

Now that Thanksgiving is almost upon us, it's truly the holiday season - and so it's time to start shopping for holiday gifts again. Whether you're fed up with holiday consumerism or just sick of trying to find a parking space at the Beverly Center, consider making a donation to one of these charities. Whether it's in someone else's name (which means you could cross it off your list without even getting up from your computer, with nothing to wrap!) or even a $10 donation from yourself, in the spirit of the season, anything you give will get us all a little closer to peace on earth and goodwill towards all man.

Adopt a shelter bed, a day of street outreach, or a homeless family at the Midnight Mission, in Skid Row downtown.

Help a local kid develop and express their creative voice at 826 LA, which needs money for their soon-to-open center in Echo Park.
(Note - there may be a branch where you are too! Check here for more info.)

Help the LA Conservancy maintain historic LA landmarks so the city stays cool.

Eastside Preparatory School is for East LA kids, who are historically underrepresented in college. The school has helped many be the first in their families to get Bachelor's degrees.

With Kiva, you lend money to entrepreneurs in developing countries, allowing them to expand businesses like small grocery stores or cattle farms and repay you! The small infusions of capitol benefit the individual business and the communities they're in, making you an international financier for the power of good.
(I have two active Kiva loans right now and am amazed tracking the progress of my small businesses!)

With Treat Any Soldier, you can select a care package to be sent to soldiers serving in Iraq or Afghanistan.

The National Military Family Association supports and advocates for families of deployed soldiers.

The Disabled American Veterans fund provides services, treatment, and financial support to disabled soldiers.

Help children in homeless shelters have sweeter dreams with blankets, toys, and goodnight stories from Project Night Night.

The First Book organization ensures that kids from low-income families nationwide get their first book.

The Mr. Holland's Opus Foundation (don't hate it because of the silly name) supports music education in public schools, donating thousands of musical instruments to schools.


Planned Parenthood offers high-quality sexual and reproductive health care, including family planning, gynecological care, pregnancy testing, and abortion services.

Fund research to prevent and treat HIV/AIDS at the AIDS Research Alliance.

Fund research to prevent and treat breast cancer at Susan G Komen For the Cure.

The LA Free Clinic has been giving free health care to kids, teens, adults, and families without insurance for 40 years.

At Doctors Without Borders, $35 can feed 200 children, and $50 can vaccinate 50 people against deadly epidemics like malaria or polio.

Provide a month of care for a woman or child rescued from sexual slavery for just $30 at Shared Hope International.

Free The Children helps kids in Africa and rural Asia get access to clean water, health care, and primary education.

The American Refugee Committee is providing blankets, health care, food, and protection from rape to Darfur refugees.

Amnesty International continues to keep an eye on human rights issues worldwide, including child soldiers in Uganda, Iraqi refugees, and internet censorship in China.

Adopt half an acre of rainforest in Central or South America for $25 at the Rainforest Alliance.

The Union of Concerned Scientists, consistently bringing accurate science to the global warming debates.

Conservation International is working to preserve global biodiversity before we destroy it.

Heal the Bay works to keep the California oceans, coasts, and watersheds clean.

thatabbygirl: graffiti art of an anthropomorphized spray paint can, scowling (veil)
my top ten most played songs in itunes do not feel very representative. but shamefully, i think they are.

1. cecile - rude bwoy thug life
2. estelle - go gone
3. ying yang twins - live again (this is so shameful!)
4. tim burgess - oh my corazon
5. MSTRKRFT + the panthers - thank me with your hands (remix)
6. MIA - hombre
7. mobb deep f/nate dogg - ooh wee
8. cecile - high five
9. metric - dead disco
10. the redwalls - deep in the heart

i like caribbean influenced sounds (cecile, MIA).
i like blues/soul influenced rock n roll (tim burgess, redwalls)
i like rock n roll indie rock (the panthers)
i like soulful songs about the life of a stripper (ying yang twins)
i like lady singers (cecile, estelle, MIA, metric)
i love me some nate dogg

still here!

Jul. 1st, 2006 12:26 am
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i know i've been dreadfully absent. i've been consumed by work. work is extremely challenging - both in ways that help me to grow and are amazingly fulfilling and in ways that frustrate me more than words can express. so that's pretty much what i've been up to.

mags wanted me to post so i feel like i should have more to say. i've been going to the farmer's market a lot and cooking and all that good stuff. i've also found myself going to a lot of comedy shows at the upright citizens brigade, which reminds me of living in chicago. my cat is in good health and is a delightful companion. my car is in less good health and is an increasingly unreliable companion.

i've been listening to the new nelly furtado stuff a lot. also spank rock. i would totally listen to a spank rock remix of a nelly furtado song if there were one. and like i do every summer, i'm obsessed with 70's soul. coachella was fabulous this year and i'm going to see massive attack at the hollywood bowl later this summer.

i hope you are all well and assure you that even though i haven't been reading, i have been thinking about all of you.

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i went to bed at 11 and tossed and turned and finally got up. what was bothering me? the governor's proposed state budget, of course. i needed to get up and write an email to all my friends about it. could not sleep until i engaged in some political activism.

i'm posting it here for those interested in community organizing and/or california state politics )


Jan. 8th, 2005 03:27 pm
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7. trickster's choice, tamora pierce. this is YA fantasy. i've read another series by this author, who focuses on female warriors and spies and queens. very involving and lots of cameos from old favorite characters. i'm about to order the sequel from amazon right now.
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brief shout from non-communication land! there is now a kittie living in my house, an 8 week old mostly-siamese-mix from the shelter. i've named her princess as she is as pretty as one. and since she's so tiny and fluffy, every single thing she does is adorable.

today has been very relaxing. off to dinner at a restaurant with a friend and his parents. yum!

hope everyone is having a wonderful day. my internet troubles have reminded me how much i look forward to reading what you guys are saying and how utterly annoying it is not to have access to that.

xoxo - me & princess.
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i'm using someone's computer here and it's such a relief to use on that works! i'd almost forgotten that the internet could bring pleasure.

the poker tournament was suuuper fun. i came in 5th out of 40 and was the last woman left in the tournament. i got a little trophy and a digital camera!! huzzah for me!! i was very pleased.

it's been fun here if a little over-planned and weird family stuff and listening to conversations i don't care about. but lots of delicious free food and wine, staying in a lovely room, and i do feel a lot more relaxed and unconcerned than i've been feeling of late. so good for that.

must go - back into the melee.
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ooh, y'all, i think my computer's fixed! the evil bad process isn't showing up in the process list anymore and it's working much more smoothly. i may once again be connected to the world around me! huzzah! i am whole again!
thatabbygirl: graffiti art of an anthropomorphized spray paint can, scowling (tennenbaums)
good thing i have so many episodes of the west wing on my tivo. i much prefer the fictional white house - where the president seems to have the same overall goals as i do, where he pushes for policies to move the country in a direction i think is wise, where i trust him to watch over the country and protect my interests even when i'm not paying attention - and i think i'll go hide there for a while.

like for 4 years.

at least the propositions seem to be going well - the money for stem cell research was approved, it looks like limitations on the three strikes law will be approved. there's a proposition to levy a tax on personal income over $1 million per year and use the funds to expand county mental health services, which is totally a goal i applaud and a funding method i approve of. it better win or i just will not know what to do with myself.

i know things will be fine. i'm disappointed. but i feel less ... defeated than i thought i might.

i still just wish that this isn't happening, that things are different.
thatabbygirl: graffiti art of an anthropomorphized spray paint can, scowling (tennenbaums)
i voted this morning. didn't have to wait in line too long. and now i have an 'i voted' sticker to lord over people all day. last night i got 4 or 5 phone calls from people seeking my insight and knowledge on claifornia's 2837 ballot initiatives up for vote this election. good to know that people look to me as a resource. :)

i am so so so nervous about this. my biggest fear is that it takes another 5 weeks to figure out who won, and what on earth will happen if it goes to the supreme court? with rhenquist out sick, it'd be 4 - 4! and then we just have no president for 4 years! my head will just explode. i can't handle another round of litigation on some novel twist in election law. i can't do it.

also, my computer has been really slow lately and i think there's some kind of virtual memory management issue. i'm trying not to throw it off the balcony like a rotted pumpkin.

off to work - two hearings today. doing my part to ensure fair actions by county, state, and federal governments. i see you, governmental officers! i'm watching you!
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who wants to give me a kidney? time to prove your love, kids. pony up.
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