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Aug. 22nd, 2003 12:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thatabbygirlso.
um.
we broke up.
it's really weird to be here at the apartment, with him crashing with a friend, and looking around at all the stuff that he's going to take with him when he leaves. i know it's for the best, for both of us. he wasn't the guy for me in a long term kind of way and that's what he wanted from me and it was just silly to kill ourselves to work through these big looming issues making it impossible for us to be together now if we weren't planning on staying together.
i miss him already. i'm terrified already. but i don't feel for a second like i made a mistake. i wish doing the right thing didn't hurt so fucking much. i'm trying hard to take care of myself but i just get overwhelmed with crying and he's the one who gives me hugs when i'm like that but he can't do that now.
god, i knew this was going to happen. i was just going to make a quick post so you guys would know what was up and now i want to write everything about him. how i hope this gives him the motivation to make the changes in his life he so desperately needs. how i'm scared that dealing with the break up and having to move out will so overtax his energy that he won't have any to devote to becoming his own person. how i feel like i'm going to be so fucking lonely.
being a grown-up is hard.
um.
we broke up.
it's really weird to be here at the apartment, with him crashing with a friend, and looking around at all the stuff that he's going to take with him when he leaves. i know it's for the best, for both of us. he wasn't the guy for me in a long term kind of way and that's what he wanted from me and it was just silly to kill ourselves to work through these big looming issues making it impossible for us to be together now if we weren't planning on staying together.
i miss him already. i'm terrified already. but i don't feel for a second like i made a mistake. i wish doing the right thing didn't hurt so fucking much. i'm trying hard to take care of myself but i just get overwhelmed with crying and he's the one who gives me hugs when i'm like that but he can't do that now.
god, i knew this was going to happen. i was just going to make a quick post so you guys would know what was up and now i want to write everything about him. how i hope this gives him the motivation to make the changes in his life he so desperately needs. how i'm scared that dealing with the break up and having to move out will so overtax his energy that he won't have any to devote to becoming his own person. how i feel like i'm going to be so fucking lonely.
being a grown-up is hard.
